Finding Who I Am

My oldest child is mad at me and my middle girl, can't understand me. The youngest of three just loves me. All their love is felt it is that I feel all I different ways. My youngest is my son and he always was understanding of the struggle that I was going through at that time. The next to understand was my middle girl. But, my oldest  she felt and probably still feels the world owes her something. We did a hell of a good job raising our kids together. Even though we split our kids had both parents in their lives.

Neither he nor I could see our selves not in our children lives, when he worked I was at the games ans so on and so forth. Through life circumstances I was asking myself so real serious questions that only I could answer. You know those type of questions,  the type that makes you realy search within one self for.

While on my journey to finding me I found the answers to some of my hard  questions. What did I learn? Did it help me to grow as a person? Finding one self is a great and good process to go through in life. At least it was for me. Learning who I was and what I was made up of only help better myself in the end. It made me more valuable as a person and as a mother. Because it force them to grow up in atea that they nedded to. It made me look at my young adults kids in a totally different way. For the first time I began looking at them like " you can do this". Theses children were not given everything to them on a silver platter. They learn to work for the things in life that meant something important to them.

So in finding me I found peace of mind and less strees. The kids started growing up and taking care of their responsibilities in life . Even though I was not there all the time I never left their life.

Authoress Charlotte M Croom- Martin

Ocean talk to me.

There is nothing like totally relaxing in the shade and listen to the sea waves. My mind and body totally calm. My thoughts then can move about in my head. I can begin to open my mind to possibility in my life. Life is hard enough each day why relax and enjoy a moment then take on your battle of chouce.

A mother or a Father keeper

We as women have to set the bar in our life high.For one so our kids will continue to set their bars high. We as women must continue to pray about our live ones. And, finally we as women must make good chooses in life,starting with our partners. Believe it or not our children are watching us still to this day. That is fine they should be. But, let us raise up and show they good things,teach them the right way to be a good women. We must sit down and start the conversation again if you have gotten away from it.And begin it if you haven't.  Our children are our future and they are looking to us for some answers, not all but some. I am my child keeper,yes I am.

A boy in a man's body.

He could never relate to me or my feelings. He could never feel what I was feeling from day to day. He world was a mess before I walked into it. I should have ran the other way as fast as I could when I show the signs. I let myself once again feel for someone not worthy of me. I am so much better then most, not because of my looks but because of my mind set,because I am an over comer. This to shall pass as my mom would say many of days. Another lesson to be learned the hard way.

New Love in 2015

Now that your new year is on it way, if you like me you ate watching everything that is taken place around you. This year people want to see change in their life. They are believing for greatness in many areas.

Love, is what I hope has presented it self to me. Now we can't go rushing into stuff I know so taking baby steps is in order every time. This year it is God's way for me. It is how He brings love into my life. I have pick for myself enough times to know I went about it all wrong. Disregarding his will for my life. I am wiser to know his way is the only way. Through my past mistake I had to learn life lessons in love. Hurt came and slap me in the face right along with honesty. But through it all I humble myself to God and ask for forgiveness to make it through another day.
Again , love is what I am seeking not only to receive it but to give to.
There is a mate for me out there in the world, one who will totally understand and relate to me, heart, mind ,soul. We will connect like a Bee is to honey. I will complete his sentences as he completes mine. A love like this kind is rare to find but once found, it is happily ever after.

Journey through my life

Going through life you should always write about it some way. Just to be able to keep note of how you have grown in life situations is good.

As this day continue things came into it own place for me. I know I am a child of God and He wants me to be prepared for his job for me. I stayed to myself and focused on his word as much as I possible could. If you speak his word and read his word. He will be there.
I am still seeking clarification for areas of my life but I feel great in the process of learning and seeking the answer.

My purpose is great and I know I can not do it by myself. But, with Christ all things are possible. He is in control and I give him all of me.

Trust me or leave me

How hurtful is it to have to explain yourself all the time while in a relationship. If there is no trust there is no relationship. A person should be able to be who they are.

In marriage today both parties have to come to the table with something.And wouldn't it be great if it was trust right off the back. No marriage or relationship is promised to last, it is what you put in it, then you will see what you have.

Trust is the glue in relationships and marriages today. Now if a partner always have to answer to her man or husband, then tell me what is being said here.? It frustrating to see young couple in this area because it start trouble in most relationships.